After faithfully pumping 4x/day for the past few months, I decided to drop a pump 3 days ago.
It is unthinkable mere weeks ago. I was very determined to feed my baby only THE BEST. Ya I know formula is not poison, but.. it is simply NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
I was under a lot of stress to keep up with my baby’s demand, pumping 5x/day sometimes. As a result, I was restrained from doing a lot of things that I like eg visiting friends, joining cooking classes, shopping etc. And it wore me down from playing and interacting with my child. It affected my husband too because I was not the nicest person to be with when I am under stress!
Like all mothers, we want absolutely THE BEST for our brood. It kills me to think that my son will eventually venture into this imperfect world on his own, makes mistakes, falls, has his heart broken, be disappointed by this twisted society.
I am already in pain thinking of sending him to playschool! Will the caretakers understand and meet his needs? Will they comfort him when he cries? Will they interact and play with him? Somehow the image of his tiny hands waving unanswered in the air lingers in my mind *tearing up*
I have to start somewhere. I have to learn to let go slowly for the betterment of everyone..
Ok, back to the topic, here is what I do now:
Pumping schedule: 6am, 2pm, 10pm (40-60 minutes each session)
Expressed volume: 26-27oz a day (we need to supplement with 2-4oz formula once or twice a week with this output)
Baby’s consumption: 24-28oz a day
Pump: Avent ISIS iQ Duo
Freezer stash: 0, as in NIL sigh
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